Basically I have zero feeling from my wrists to my fingertips and my hips to my toes. I am numb all over and confined to my wheelchair and my bed. I think its called 'chronic b-12 deficiency with nitris oxide poisoning'. its hell gentlemen. ive been getting a little better, in a physical rehab facility now. spent last week at the hospital and the week before dragging myself across the floor at my parents house. my legs knees and feet are all scarred from the dragging around. ive had a few nasty falls cause im a stubborn dick who still tries to walk. this is the worst experience of my life. I beg of yall, never ever fuck with nitris, this happens to like 1/500 people, so lucky me.
just typing this out on a computer is almost impossible.
apparently I had a major deficiency of vitamin b12 in my system and just the little bit of nitris I did almost complexly paralyzed me. I may be walking again in a couple weeks, couple months, or maybe never.
shit is fucked up yall.
my day starts at 7am. I sit on my ass till about 9 when I go in for physical therapy till about 2-3 (with a break at noon for lunch) which absolutely kicks my ass and also is pretty demeaning. everyone is really nice and helpful, buut im being treated like a child.
I still have a sense of humor about this, but its fucking the worst. id give anything to get my life back. still employed (on extended medical leave) so that's cool I guess.
I really miss being able to do the simple things that we take for granted everyday and spend every waking moment regretting one stupid decision I made in a momwent of extreme depression.